A Younger, Less Experienced, Cheaper Model
Posted on June 25, 2008
today i feel like i am outsourcing, like somehow i am downgrading the level of service that i receive from jasper in exchange for a younger, less experienced, more energetic and cheaper model. i feel a bit like i am betraying him. i know, i know, it has to happen but it doest make it any easier.
i almost didnt go to work today. i feel like crap. im glad liame and jasper pushed me to finally get my but out of bed but i dont know how much longer i can keep fighting this episode. all i want to do right now is lock myself up in a closet and stare at the walls. i havent felt like this in a long time. im trying to push through this, hoping its just a temporary set back, that somehow if i just wait long enough and keep exercising and eating right that i can work my way out of it. my meds have been upped to their max and i dont want to be put on another medication just to experience its roller coaster ride. im going to ask my doctor if there are any nutritional supplements that i can take that wont interfere with my current medication load.
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